Trump’s aggression in Iran keeps triggering feelings I’d rather not have — complicated, overwhelming, and, at times, conflicting.

I don’t disagree with disarming a terrorist state on the cusp of nuclear arms; that seems like a common-sense, preserve-the-planet objective. I also don’t mind spending tax dollars to help desperate Iranians cast off religious rule; their brutal oppression has caught in my throat for years. When that 22-year-old was beaten to death for not covering her hair a while back I thought, wow, this is it. Finally. She will be the catalyst, the inflection point where Iranians rise up and smack down roving bands of morality police who enjoy punching girls. I mean, the center can’t hold where a bunch of religious men get to kill women for their lack of religiosity or personal choices, right?

Wrong. Iranians didn’t revolt. But neither did we. The Dobbs decision is over four years old and now pregnant women in red states are dying at twice the rate as women in blue states. What’s a little femicide among friends, amarite?

Same as it ever was

Those not-entirely-false equivalencies aside, Trump’s rotating justifications on Iran, and his obvious lack of concern for what comes next, cause high blood pressure. His side-ape’s game-boy messaging on “death and destruction” doesn’t impress either, it just confirms that humans haven’t really evolved since Homo erectus. Stone clubs or Tomahawks, what’s the difference when it comes to brute force meted out by morons?

Please, if there is a god, can I just sleep for the next 5,000 years and come back when people know how to live in peace and preserve their only home?

Anguish over Gaza feels much the same. Who benefits from reducing an already poor nation to rubble, other than arms dealers and developers? When Gazans’ plight — starving, thirsty — is in the news, I can’t take a drink of water in the night without internalizing their depth of thirst.  If I were dehydrated, sleeping under a tarp, and my children and mule were also parched, how would I split a cup of water? Would I give it all to one child in hopes one of us would survive? Or would I divide it among all of us, two tablespoons each, just to share the life-affirming if fleeting joy of wetness on our tongues?

Are we back to an eye for an eye?

Hamas terrorists are inhuman. Who or what made them that way is a question for another day, but what they did to innocent Israelis dancing under the stars in 2023 justifies their erasure from the planet, no further questions.

But who thinks a thousand eyes for an eye is morally just? Who, other than an unpopular criminal politician using war as a deflection, offers up 70,000 lives as sacrificial lambs just to keep himself in power? Don’t answer that. I’m aware that we have our own psychopath in charge. So it’s not moral superiority I feel, it’s grief for the human condition. Grief, and more than a little disgust.

When I opened today’s NYT video of parents sobbing outside the school we bombed, killing over 150 children, I broke down. I mean, I lost it. Those could be my parents crying for their dead children. That could be my little girl crushed under mortar, crying for me as she takes her last breath.

Mostly, I’m choked with shame. This is my country doing this horrible thing to Iranian people who have done nothing, absolutely nothing, to harm me.

Don’t blame Iranians for their leaders unless you want to be blamed for Trump

Iranians have been ruled by armed religious freaks since the Islamic Revolution which we caused by imposing the last shah, whom everyone hated. American hubris and oil greed led to Iran’s theocratic regime 47 years ago, and Iranians have been brutalized under holy Sharia law ever since. When I hear Christian Nationalists promote theocracy in the U.S. I want to slap them: they have no clue what the Establishment Clause has done for our country, or for them.

Thanks to theocracy, Iranians now live under roving patrols of armed thugs. The Islamic Revolutionary Guard Corps command terrorist cells on every block, of every city, of every district in Iran. Expecting unarmed citizens to challenge them is worse than ignorant, it’s ghoulish.

Compared to what Iranians have had shoved down their throats, Americans look like idiots for knowingly electing an imbecile criminal as president. Every American with a TV saw what happened on J-6, confirming that Trump will do anything for power, and we still re-elected him.  

Now we, too, have roving bands of armed paramilitary thugs driving around with guns. What does that say about us?

Sabrina Haake is a 25+ year federal trial attorney specializing in 1st and 14th A defense. Her columns are published in Alternet, Chicago Tribune, MSN, Out South Florida, Raw Story, Salon, Smart News and Windy City Times. Her Substack, The Haake Take, is free.